One week until I fly back home 💖 I’m itching to create new c..
Added 2021-03-23 23:07:48 +0000 UTCOne week until I fly back home 💖 I’m itching to create new content like usual in my home in the states but I will also miss the simplicity of my home country. I’ve had lots of emotions being in my hometown for what feels like forever now. Reconnecting with old friends, trying to catch up with my family, trying to make up for the time I’ve been away from home, sometimes I find myself even imagining what my life would have been like if I never left here, and wondering what if I move back? As some of you guys know I struggle with anxiety and living in LA puts a lot of pressure on me to try to get by, save some money and reach my financial goals. Even though my rent is crazy expensive I do ok and I love the level of comfort of living in LA above all, but it’s so fucking lonely, you guys have no idea. Even more lonely now that I will separate from my husband😞 That’s why sometimes I think about moving back home where I have my family and friends, but I would have to start again from zero and the thought of giving up my comfy life in LA makes me sad at the same time haha. I have a hard time trying to reconcile these mixed feelings I have about where I would really like to live, where would I be the happiest? I don’t even know the answer. Anyways, enjoy my last crappy posts while I get back to my soft lightbox, ring lights, colored lights and tons of expensive makeup and lingerie that my most beloved fans are accustomed to see me with. I love you 💕 I hope my personal rants don’t bother you too much, just had a lot in my mind these last few days 😌
