






🔥 Tip $5 if I look cuter covered in cum 😍❤️ Here’s some shots where I look TOTALLY THRILLED about my facial. My mom is an artist, I didn’t quite inherit her artistic abilities but I did develop an intense appreciation for artistic creativity when I see it. I view myself as fairly rigid and rational (almost to a fault), I seek the optimal method that would get the best results, not the type to really play around a bit and do some exploring. I’m fine with this part of myself because I know that’s just who I am and I can’t really change it. I usually get along best with people on the opposite side of the spectrum, the weird artistic creative types, interestingly enough. If you’re intellectually minded as most of my subscribers are, I want to introduce you to a creator friend who I highly regard in terms of her intelligence, unique creativity, overall, she’s just a great person who I am glad to have gotten to know from Onlyfans. I’m actually visiting her later next month as well so we can have some more cute girl collabs. ;-) What I really like about her page is it feels like something I would say or do if I had that particular spirit or disposition. Her page is different than mine but I still resonate with a lot of what she puts out there. I really would love it if you would take the time to read what she has to say. 🌟 Her account is: @nastyavalentine If you do decide to subscribe (which I highly recommend. I paid for a three month bundle myself), feel free to tell her that I sent you. 💕 Her bundle is on sale for $18 for three months. Don’t miss it ❤️ Her writing is as follows: — “I don't mind being objectified - in fact I like being the object of your fantasy*. hell, I objectify myself all the time. I love being the digital projection of your cyberhorny desires. I love hearing about your fetishes and bringing them to life. I love that you think I'm hot and I kind of am in consistent disbelief that people find me attractive. it's all very Baudrillardian and hyperreal. in the words of Rachael from Blade Runner, I'm not in the business, I am the business. I am the fantasy. I am the product. however there is a difference between being objectified and being dehumanized. it's strange detangling a passion project that intersects with being a service job. and much like in the real world where there are assholes who fail to tip waitstaff or are assholes to valets/baristas/servers/nurses, there are such people here who fail to consider that underneath my thigh highs and elven anime tits I am simply a person with feelings, goals, desires, good days, bad days, just trying to exist in this fucked up dystopian world. just trying to make some juicy art and make some filthy conceptual porn lol 😂 in February I started working very loosely on a thesis that I wish to get academically published, that pertains to the metaphysics of doing online SW and my experience of only fans in particular. and don't worry - if this thesis cums to fruition I will not cite any specific interactions because that is all private between us, i respect your privacy as I expect you to do mine, and the whole point of this piece of writing is to explore my being on here conceptually, existentially, ontologically. this has more to do with me trying to create clarity out of chaos on a bigger level, using only fans as my artistic medium. all I mainly want is to make sense of my life and heal my traumas through art and introspection. every year my art practice takes on a different path; last year I made an album (I'm still making music this year but nothing released publicly yet); in 2019 and 2018 I made experimental films; this year I feel called to write, and I consider OF a complete art form all in itself, so this thesis would dovetail my passions quite elegantly (or so I hope lol). truthfully I haven't worked on it too much because I find my creativity derailed by depression, but every once in a while I will have a writing spurt and an a-ha moment and totally violate my notebook or fuck shit up on notes app lol. I occasionally will post long form essays (?) like this on this one over here too - shockingly some of you enjoy them which is why my crazy ass continues to free associate up in this bitch. yes income is very important to me, and of course I want to make a living, I am immensely immensely thankful to y'all who contribute to me. my trajectory as an obscure artist to someone who can pay my rent with this is not something I take for granted - but notwithstanding in the grander picture I think a lot of people miss the point of why I personally do this. the last thing I want is to keep explaining myself. I resent doing that, I prefer my art to be interpreted by the viewer. however when my work is so intimately tied to my body and personality, I too often feel the need to explain myself. I kind of go back and forth on that - I think in the near future I will make a pinned post about the mechanics of my profile, a more comprehensive tip menu, links to my past films for those who wish to see, etc. I don't know the longevity of how long I will continue. I wish to do this for as long as possible, but if it gets not fun for me anymore, then I see no point. for the near future tho as far as I can see, I still love it 💗 it's just isolated days/episodes that get exhausting. do you ever get frustrated at work? yeah, same. but thankfully it's only temporary, just a moment in time. my goal is to have this thesis finished, at least in a long outline form, by the end of the year. with the demotivation that comes with my depression I may have to give myself an extension into 2022, but I also know that when I'm truly inspired I work very fast. like Sonic lol 😂 💙 I see a lot of creators making stuff like "this is how I got successful on OF" "these are the formulaic instructions on how to become a top creator" etc. and while I think yesss get that bag sis, I think a lot of those posts are cringe and bunch of bullshit and emotionally masturbatory and full of ego; there's a lot of dark psychological undercurrent that gets left out of the conversation. maybe it's because I think of things in a very dense and obtuse and academic way (of course I would be the fucking bitch to make only fans pretentious lmao - someone called me " a mix of Riley Reid and Sylvia Plath" recently and I am actually flattered by that) 💗 or maybe it is because I'm jealous of the 18 years old who make 20k a month on those formulaic promotional strategies and basic nudes lol - I believe if I followed a formula to completion and really studied the market, taking 10-12hrs out of my day to suck the algorithm's dick, I could have a very high amount of success and subscribers. however, I would rather cater to my niche and feel the freedom of posting the type of content that's true to my vision, some of it maybe being more generic and pornographic, others more obscure and conceptual. I hate marketing and advertising. the people who need to find me will find me and it will be aligned. when I look back at the end of my life I want to be proud of putting my heart and soul into my work (art, porn, writing, existing, whatever) and I always say this to myself, I want to be eternal instead of trendy. Contemporary society is such that most people will gravitate towards what is easily digestible. My content veers into the lines of pain which may not be comfortable for people to read. But I believe this will be eye opening for some about the psychology of the parasocial phenomenon and the cyberhorny experience.”